(maybe) we're both afraid of the words we both havn't said

on.

happy leap year y'all. (:D)
past days have been the roughest patch of my sweet sixteen. as though gray clouds bloomed every morning and skies rained red blood all evening long. take joy that i've survived it and now i'm gonna give thanks.

thank you a07 for being my pillar of support. thank you han khym stanley for the chilling sessions that made me a whole lot better. thank you sa mates for bombarding me with retarded suggestions on how to bribe the principal. thank you team hc for garnering every tinge of help for you. thank you aunty yuhua aunty julie uncle kiat uncle seng for backing every choice i make. (:])

haha everyone stop partying and join muggers club its the new bomb though its a hundred times more energy drenching than athletics training. i'm so going to receive president scholar at the end of this hell. bye nerds!

Labels: you look so beautiful today

don't bother. its only when we've lost everything that we're free to do anything.

i'm sick of struggling till 4 in the morning to write appeal testimonials. i'm sick of taking chances from different schools. i'm sick of wearing the shirt of a different college and trying to be part of the team. i'm sick of listening to them talk about school and don't understand a letter. i'm sick of ending a race with consolations instead of praises. i'm sick of having to swallow my pride and dignity and apologising cos i missed my subject registration. i'm sick of running back to saints the moment i alight from the train just cos i want to return so badly. i'm sick of crying everyday as my heart is in saints but my physical's not there. i'm sick of biting my lips till they bled to hold back tears cos i'm sick of showing the week side of me and falling into comfort. even when my knees and ankles break i'll still crawl and drag myself, back to sa.

i wanna puke. i'm damn sick and i need an mc. [):]

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the past month have been nothing but melted liquid marshmallows coated with strawberries, oh sweet! i love school, i go to school everyday, i don't skip school/ saint andrews! (: (if ogling is your all-time favourite hobby, here's a college to be)
[OG03 08A07] the added joy to my life! they're the very reason why i spring out of bed scrub my teeth and pop my contact lenses every morning, i love love love you people!

another reason to stick a blithe note on the fridge is the unplanned coincidental reunion with coach pandian and the juniors during MR25, the blissful waylay prolly also came to me as added incitations to finish the dirrrtiest race of my entire life.
ever since i joined the hwachong team for training, my love for athletics seemingly have spurred a level higher. i simply don't understand why everyone around me keeps asking me to quit running. be bold be discipline and stay strong.

merry rat year please eat more food and grow fat so i can be the slimmest person around. i'm mondaine and free please date me out on mahjong sessions and bring me out to watch 27 dresses! (:

Labels: love like that swing in my childhood memories