(maybe) we're both afraid of the words we both havn't said

on.

I dreamt that you were a part-time lover, but i woke up you were a full time friend.

Finally an entire undisturbed uninterrupted day for myself to appreciate the pretty green and bees and birds (uh or crows?) i seriously need more time like this for self-reflection. Was supposed yeah supposed to follow an uncompromising timetable consisting of work sit-ups food work and more work. Did i mention work??? since 7.30, that is but its past noon now and i've absolutely no recollection or what so.

I microwaved french fries, yes i'm proud! And my heart skipped a beat or rather, many beats with images of me, food, exploded oven a couple of years ago still flashing. I haven't dared to cross that 3m away from oven beep beep red line since then. Then i had to feed a sudden urge for a serious post.

Have been plunging all my time/efforts to keep up with love of the life literature and history, an 800m breakthrough, r-e-a-l-l-y-f-u-n-f-r-i-e-n-d-s but never to myself. Feeling's like you've lost your IC your birthcert your bus pass your name your birthday your identity yadeyade you get the picture. I'm so easily influenced by anything and almost everything around me i can't find myself anymore. (Is there a need?)

I'm starting to find myself a terrible miserable person.

On a sweeter thought, yesterday was REALLY ACCOMPLISHED DAY!
1. finished an unbelievable mountaneous amount of work (reading room+yogurt+classical tunes highly recommended!)
2. did a really accurate personality test C:
3. made 2 new friends C: C:
4. something involving getting dumbly conned by lumpier lou and a fire extinguisher in my bag
5. something involving macs and island creamery and a failed diet

peishi.livejournal is occupied@#!(*#$& How tempted am i. Or did a create a livejournal account and forgot all about it??? Vadavada voo!

Labels: breakaway for a breakthrough