(maybe) we're both afraid of the words we both havn't said

on.

it started off bad, it ended off worst.

i'm speechless about what happened yesterday, i just thought it was childish.

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my day started of bad, it ended off worst.

i almost didn't finish my long march paperD:

i'm gng to fail my phy spa, fail my Os, get kicked out of sku and end up jobless.

i took a wrong bus and ended up some where in maria sq, so i took a taxi. i must hv looked dumb cos sweet lil uncle poon of shb4060u took me for a ride (around orchard) then make a big u-turn back to my house.
HE CHEATED MY MONEY AND MED:

THE manuscript:-ways to prevent kena cheated by taxi drivers, adopted by tan peepee.
GET IT, NOW.

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okay i was just feeling ramdom and sore about getting cheatedD:

it just makes me smile,
you are the one.

oh yes, you can actually tag you know. just click on the missylilirritating says:

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(30 july 2006)

it took me so long just to realise that we belong to two different worlds.
8 years in jammings studio, i will rmbr.

all i know is i'm lost without you, i'm not gna lie.
how am i gna be strong without you, i need you by my side.

if we ever say we'd never be tgther, in the end you wave goodbye,
dont know what i'd do, i'm lost without you.

i keep trying to find my way, and all i know is i'm lost without you.
i keep trying to face the day, i'm lost with without your love.

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cos we're always distance away.

i hate anyone who's <158cm. okay i'm shortD:

i went to get my eyes checked and realised that my myopia's gone down from 300+ to 200+. maybe in a few years time i wont need to wear specs:D

show your support for a funding project for me. i need financial assistance for:

1. creative zen v (yes xina got hers already!D:)
2. THAT esprit top

hahah checques, cash or nets are accepted.

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oh i'm starting to love bird-watching at rv<3

you dont see me,
you dont even know me.

i'm overly self-obsessed.

okay farhanah we are sun sponges and we love to soak up the suno_o

hahah today xiao qiang (the cockroach) came for a visit today during lecture, and guess who was the first to jump out of his chairxD

my dad says he's a ghost buster, he taught me these:

1. dont turn back on your left at night.
2. dont cover your forehead with anything, including hair, cap etc.

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i heard that there's gng to be a blog check some time soon.

it's either THEY hv too lil things to occupy themselves, or they're purely concerned about too many vulgarities gives us dirty mind. OR they're kpo.

ay but think of it,
even if we delete our entire blog, but you still hate you, we'll still curse you somewhere else.
why waste the time!

why are suicide rates incresing?
blog checks -> close blog -> no blog -> no place to rant -> signs of depression -> depression stage3 -> depression fully developed -> SUICIDE.

see, i'm a good history student:D

i'm missing it.

i've never felt like this before.

mrs gohSM actually praised me, she said i was hardworking dudes!
i'm gna faint(

heritage race today:i was paired with patrice and a thai, indian from shuqun.
pretty worried that me and patrice wont find any common topics to talk about, in the end we were yaking along.

whoa 5h of walking, i need to soak my feet in brands now to make it smarter.

then the 12 of us went balestia for the famous chicken rice.
superrr cheapskate please the wet towel cost $0.30!

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dec2005 when i saw my class 3j on edulearn, the first thing i did was, i cried.
that every afternoon i called ang mia lee for a transfer of class, he told me to think over.

people around me ask me to give the class a chance.
i told him that i dont want a tranfer anymore.

and now i'm regretting my choice.

being in the class is way too stressful,
all that bitching about each other is endless.

i've got classmates calling me a poseur, a slut, and a whore.
not only me, in fact the whole class is slapping dirty names on each other.

it's a blessing i still hvfarhanah, hui min and the O'BALS to turn to, thank you:D

i'm way too grossed out to continue anymore.

and monday i'll hear "omg you know that peishi's such a bitch, you bitched about her class!".

i used to hate you,
and now you changed me.c

ain't it sad when everything's so fake.

hahah thanks for letting know who my true friends are.
ain't this world a sad place to live in.

sunday's band fiesta:D

yesterday's english presentation was alright, except i was so nervous i kept stammering so hooks kept shooting me with poisonous stares.

then it was heritage celebrations/
i love 3jam!

that's my sissy![:

i promote satays with umbrellaS on my hair.
-_-

then rushed down to cck stadium with leena and jj to watched nationals finals.

hahah i'm screwed, so many fugly tests com'ng up please!
history first united front graded as'gnment, history long march exam, socal studies merger and seperation ireland and chemistry acid bases and salts:

i'm gng to clark quey to commit suicide later on.

and now it's just another
never ending story.

everyone selfishly live their own lives.

4:30 is one of those films you wont want to watch again but it always strikes you every now and then. good movie, go catch it.

woo went to farhanah's house today and i got so traumatised by mei mei. o_o

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you hv heard that t was said, you shall love your neighbour and hate your enemy.
but i say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you.

for if you hate your enemies, you're just like them.

wo hen xiang ni,
ni zhi dao ma.

i am invisible to you.

i'm the most irritating woman in the entire world.

speech day today, we were sitting at the gallery and i swear even if mr bryan tan (193cm tall) was to stand on the stage i can only see his strands of hair.
it was speeches, after speeches, after speeches.

no wonder it's called speech day. -_-

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people support local films please!<3>A ROYSTON TAN MOVIE, 4.30 A TAN PEI SHI MOVIE, 5:30.

and now the entire world only cares about you like you're the only one getting hurt.
i'm carrying all that shit for you girl.
you never fail to make me touched.
you dont know me,
you dont even see me.

screwed la. D:

my o levels chinese was a total flop, the question was : why do you think young people prefer sendng emails then sendng post cards?

o_o

woo anyway i had a one to one lesson with ms yang.

i feel so screwed why am i so bad tempered nowadays! D:

believe me,
you're gna do well.

when it all falls apart.

i hate people who take advantage of me just because i'm soft. i don't go around screaming like a dumb bitch because i don't want to, so don't F ing test my limits please.

especially people who are close to me.

i didn't do well for my 200m so i hope you don't ask.

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i'm having the day from hell, it was all going so well before you came.
and you told me you needed space, with a kiss on the side my face not again.
and not to mention the tears i shed, but i should have kicked your ass instead

everything is F'ed up straight from the heart, tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart.
gta pick myself up where do i start, cos i can't turn to you when it all falls apart.

don't know where i parked my car, don't know who my real friends are anymore.
i put my faith in you,
what a stupid thing to do when it rains it pours.
and not to mention i drank too much, i'm feeling hung over and out of touch.
i need intervention, attention to stop temptation to scream.

can it be easier,
can i just change my life, cos it just seems to go bad everytime.
will i be mending, another one ending once again.

falls apart,
gta pick myself out cause things are mended.

the race ain't over until you say it has.

today SHE asked me to stuff a bowl on my head, and cut my hair straight.

how am i to face it tmr,
it's half lost.

no regrets. :D

today marks the end of my relay races for nationals 2006, i thought i would expect myself to burst out in tear when i saw the results, but i didn't.

oh non-athletes might find this post pretty boring<

there was a false start so i did a bad starting that pulled the team down. D:
the only comforting thing is that we improved by 1+

i wanted to cry, but what's the point of sobbing when it changes nothng.
even if i cry until my eyes are stuck we also can't make it into finals.

don't worry, WE'RE GNA MAKE A GREAT COMEBACK NEXT YEAR!

to some, winning is what that matters. but to others, to be able to stand at the starting line is satisfying.

oh yeahyeah does anyone hv social studies workbook 3a pleaseplease sell to me!

please,
let him do his best tmr.

my comfort.

trg today was totally screwed.
pleasepleaseplease just let me perform on monday and wednesday!

i've been piled up by nationals, o levels oral and homework. D:
and there's a furgly math test this thursday, how am i gng to find time to study?

2days off.
when everyt goes wrong, you're my comfort.

i'm so disappointed with this friend of mine, he is the last person on earth whom i thought would lie, but i was wrong.
last time, his passion for run'ng was more than anyone else's, but now he actually says he hates trg.
evry time he tells me he's got sth important on so he can't attend trg, but whenever i reads his blog, its always a different story.

i know i'm not a medal hopeful, but at the very least i try to attend and complete evry trg.
you hv a chance to clinching glory for our sku, yet you just chose to throw your chance away.
i'm so utterly disgusted by your attitude.

happy girl!:D

so it was 4x100m today.
we received false news that the race was brought forward by 1h i almost vomited my intestines out.
in the end it was brought to 4.20pm.

call-room was terrible, there was air-con every where blowing the hell out of me and my body got so cooled. so we went to the starting line and i start to shake.
my starting wasn't really fabulous but i manage to clinch a stable fourth but joanna!manage to sprint a third out of it.

the wait for results was hell, i almost cried while waiting.
that i saw this:

AND WE GOT INTO SEMI-FINALS!
then i shiek like a bimbo.
screams<

seriously thought the timing wasn't great, (we did alot better during trg.) but i've got no regrets now, never if i die tmr at least i've contributed sth!

FANN, JADE AND JOANNA THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU GIRLS!<3

also thank you everyone who came to support today and for everyone who ran, i think that to hv a chance to stand at the starting line, it's sth we shud be proud of. no matter the race results, you ran, you did it.

okay i'm gng to melt now.

3days left,
let's do it girls.

please remember!:0

Anti [Toot] Society started on july 05 2006, wednesday mid-morning 11.30am (after pdp.) the association aims to help the poor and needy from the evil monkey troop.

royston tan came to our sku today and brought careless whisper patric khoo along!
screams<

5am i was mug'ng for physics when i hear $#*(^$(&#@ [censored] italy goaled!

4years more to the next world cup, i'll most probably be at Harvard Law Sku by then.

i aim to become a blonde.

2more to go,
my only hope.