(maybe) we're both afraid of the words we both havn't said

on.

i feel so ugh, i stoned my blog. oh whatever-. i've got a hell lot of stuffs to blog abt anyw.

finally, those bloody days of mugging until mids then wake up in the midst of wee hours are finally over. i'm a happy girl again&i'm going to gloat at those slogging their hearts out! I'M EVIL I KNOW, BUT THAT'S MY PERSONALITY.

anyhow, i've given up studying already so just kick my ass out for all you can. seriously, i'm really not made for studying. i'm dumb i admit, no matter how long/hard, how much effort i put in, i still can't excel in anyt. maybe i'm just dumb&useless&just another matter that takes up a definate shape on earth. yeah, i guess studying is not for the sake of results but knowledge.

my history atq was a goner so desmond lim might just crack my head with his tiny bottle. a math was furgly please but chng's gna start all that "oh dear, oh goodne[ss]" all over again. oh dear. my physics was predictably dumb, ho shu min'll eat me up.

holla-ed with GOBS to holland.v&we started bitching abt herbie in subway. i laughed until i cried. then headed to town with zimbazwe! :DDD

i manage to scrape a last breath outta myself this morning, today's trg was DRILLS INTENSIVE with 10sets of up-stairs i almost died.
OH PRETTY PLEASE LET ME WIN MY 200M MEDAL FOR NATIONALS THIS YEAR, so that i can snub those snobs this morning.

i've just experience my worst in hiring a taxi. we were rushing for biathlon when there were absolutely no taxis around in gombak; then there was a bitchy driver who refused to send us to sentosa! SUE HIM.
since all that parliament stuffs are going around i suggest you improve on the transport system. then might consider, probably, hv a percentile that i'll pass you my sacred vote when i'm 21. :D

played at sentosa for t whole aftnoon. a birthday boy came over to fufil a dare. HAHAHA super adorable! lunching then home sweet home. c:

it's my birthday soon! evryone pretty please give me a big red packet. not much, maybe just how much bill gates earn in a day.

where'd you go, i miss you so, seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone. oh why do you sound so sad.

i was searching for my friend's blog when i came across this very familiar blog&I SAW MY IDIOTIC BROTHER BADMOUTHING ME! i shall talk behind your back too.

look declared a spot check on wednesday morning&it was fugly! that old hag caught be for my socks&purposely recoreded into the management. HELLO OLD FORGGY JUST IN CASE IT'S TIME FOR A CHANGE OF YOUR 8947-YEAR-OLD GLASSES PLEASE GO&GET A BETTER PAIR. my logo was practically obviously seenable so i reckon he must be blind. anyhow, he was just biased he only recoreded my name. ugh, this happens when you're too adorable HAHAH.

i'm done with eng/chi paper1, as well as geog. i'm going to fail geog cos i didn't hv time to ans that last question abt regionalisation GRRR it's [6]. not to mention my hands got rotten aft writing that entire gross paper.

alright it's off to late night studying.

oh anyw i just realised that i sort of resemble sadako. i'll get a picture soon. :D

i've got a crush/es!

on that charity show last time, that little 7-year-old kid who played piano is SO ADORABLE. I'M GOING TO STALK HIM HAHAHA! :D the click! five is my next crush, i really regreted missing hollaback crew finals to go watch 'em, UGH!

these few days are busy busy busy! with mids. :c esp. geog&all that memorising, (i've got a sudden liking for maps) history with all that nvr-ending skills, chemistry&all that mole calculation, of course fugly physics with kinematics&dynamics, whatever-. i'm starting to get all that sleepless winks all over again&it's making me feel grumpy 365days on my way to rvh.

maybe it's just me, or those creature around making me feel disgusted&grossed out. i'm surprised at how their minds are formatted, as though a tablet might be smarted than 'em, or maybe the inside of a drumsets has more molecules/particles than those air heads.

i admit that i'm ugly by insulting.

who can you trust when evryone around you including yourself lies.

hahah took my napha 5items yestd. manage to scrape an a out of evryt except for STANDIND BOARD JUMP, a mere 4cm more ugh! my second jump was gross, i twisted my ankle. D:

anuual nationals x on wednesday;
overall this year's atmosphere wasn't as good as last years, but all that matters is the athletes.

comforting words hv all been said, so i shan't say anymore. this year all of us are disappointed, sm say it's either our competitors got stronger or we got weaker. there were tears, there were joy but i guess if you really liked running&hv the passion for it then positions shud not bother you at all.

but anyw i almost cried aft reading michelle's blog, true, it's their last day in rv x, but all i can say that they'll forever be in rv carrots. evryt would be so different without em. ):

oh well-. i've gta worry about my mids first, it's less than one week away&i've hardly started revising!

when will it come.

nothing's worth living for anym, nothing's worth smiling for anymore. i'm sick of evryt&evryone around me. how simple actions reveal a true self, it's scary.

adventure camp! :D
i wasn't really looking forward to that whole event actually. what's with carrying all that huge red plastic bags, going to sm isolated lost in civilisation place for 3whole days thinking that it might be defined as fun!?

apr3
i totally ~~love~~ hate my group at first. what's with these pple shutting their mouths up&refusing to co-operate. i could see that irene, swee, chang&edison were trying hard enough already so what's the problem with their attitude.

slowly, group's trying to adopt to evryt, so i started to love my group! only manage to do rafting, kayaking no, due to the bad weather. UGH! D:
a hell lot of de-briefing&cheers ended the day.

oh yeah, the toilet gross that food out of me&that food gross me to the toilet.

apr4
didn't really sleep much, but still woke up early to train. i'm gna sue this whole lot of companies when i'm gone, so soo noisy! (ranked according to the loud-ness.)

1. Singapore Airlines (seriously, grossly LOUD.)
2. SilkAir
3. Malaysia Airlines
4. ThaiAir
5. Air New India
6. Cathay Airways
7. Tiger Airlines

VICTOR! our leader weetweet! :D
only manage to do flying fox, continued by a whole lot of cheers due to the rain.

best part, CAMPFIRE!

performances put up by all the classes, climax was peaky high! our class performance was totally great, thanks to far who made that fabo electric guitar! HAHAHA took me a hell lot of time to memorise this - witness the birth of the islands most underground funk alliance tonight!
followed by "as if" dance&remix version of hopping down the road, weetweet! :D

after watching the presentation slides of what we did for the past days, i almost cried.

apr5
did cleaning for teachers dorm! WE PURPOSELY PICKED THAT HOORAY. then said bye&poof! gone from changi. D:

had 3J lunch at je, then took neos. :D

it's just all that happenings that made me saw all that plastic. i'll only do it once, i'll nvr repeat. but anyhow i'll nvr trust again.

final post before judgement, i'll be heading down to gombak for jnr championships for 200. I AM FREAK NERVOUS! oh well as for what happened yestd, i hv to say, although you're disppointed but you shouldn't hv said that.
no one likes to say she has done her best. but i'll nvr let your words put me down. you set a hurdle too high for us, but hv you noticed all that hard work&sweat.

i'm going to run, like there's no tmr.