(maybe) we're both afraid of the words we both havn't said

on.

DATE; 30DEC 2005
DAY; FRIDAY
TIME; 10.43

alright first things first, happy birthday CHRISLYN MICHEALA TAY XINLING :DDD thank me for being so nice and wishing you online. sorry but i couldn't write you a testimonial so have to wish you happy birthday here. have a sweet fourteen :)))

events have taken place so quickly recently. firstly my class; i'm getting into 3J nex year ! at first i was thinking of transferring into 3F pure history class but come to think again, what's the point of trying to force your way into a class that is not meant for you ?

anyway, i heard that tong kwok chien's gna teach 3F next year so count me as one lucky kid okay :DDD i reckon that my class's gna be uber fun with chng as my form teacher, i'm gna be the chairwoman, mavis the deputy and peiqi the cleanliness monitress.

for you; i don't know how to treat you now, to shower you with sympathy or continue being hard on you so that you realise your mistake. do you think you're able to change for the better ? prove yourself then.

hi this is fann here. im invading peishi's blog.
emily is here too and theres dummy amanda.
hahahaha
ssssssssshh
dont tell peishi!!!!

maybe i'm just too naive, i didn't realise that the competition in the team has gone tougher. Maybe not that much in track but in cross.

let's talk about track, the intensity has gone down quite alot, coach is letting us relax every now &then, maybe wanting us to practice smart training, train less, train harder, improve more.

looking at the cross people train you'll feel like every training is a competition. i'm lucky i'm not in cross, i doubt i would be able to keep up with the pace.

i've resume training recently &i feel really lousy about it. i know i'm supposed to take one step at a time ¬ care about the timing but i just can't help myself peeking at the stop-watch every now &then when i run.

now the longest distance i can run is a miserable 800. sadly, though how much i've tried, i just could not do well. when i run, i felt so screwed up, as if i'm going to faint anytime.

the first round was still okay when i started, i tried to keep a comfortabla pace &manage to do it, i did a 1.46 &was quite okay with it. it was not a very good timing but was a good start.

second round was hell, espcially at the last 200, i struggled like hell but i hit the finishing point at 2.00 exactly.

sadly, after two weeks of training, i have't gone out of my 3.46 for 800 boundary. the best timing i've ever done was 3.34.

i'm not trying to push myself, but i really want to participate in more competitions in b girls. i've wasted one year because of injury &have been labeled injury ic by mrlee. i love to run, i won't get de-motivated of what due to my injury, but there's somehow this obstacle that i just can't get over.

the next year seconday ones are training with us already i heard from some of the cross people &they are really fast. record breakers, some of them are. i can feel the pressure rising, recovering from the injury is hard enough. to be able to keep up with the rest is my next problem.

on the 27th-

do you even notice ?

life is boring for me these few days, it seemed like i have absolutely nothing to do but i actually have one whole lists of stuffs for me to complete. on the top of the list is my everlasting homework.

holiday is meant for us to relax after one whole year aka 365days of torture. yet, our lovely teaches piled us up with 7sets of chinese & 6sets of math etc. what a lovely christmas gifts they've got for us :I

recently i went to cuppage again. here's my letter;

Dear coach/teacher-in-charge,

DIAGNOSIS-
1. Bilateral patellofemeral pain.
2. Bilateral ankle pronation.

Peishi is healing well and should now return to some running. This running should be very gradual and at her own pace. This will allow her muscles to re-condition and not overload the knee joints. She can join in training sessions for light warm-up & core work, but no running training until my next review. She will also need corrective inside ofr foot biomechanical problem.

Many thanks,
DR. LOW WYE MUN

whoa i've waited for this day for damn long. saturday i woke up damn early, went all the way to turf city to show mrtan the letter. before we left, mrlee reminded me to join training on monday & said something that i'll never forget in my entire life, "welcome back." i can finally go back to running :D

make me believe, that i can run again.