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THIS IS YESTERDAY'S POST & I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT IT DISAPPEARED MYSTERIOUSLY !
if you feel lifeless during weekends-
go watch
i not stupid too. i highly recommend it after watching with fann, amanda, nx, emily, leena, janice, lirui & jingjie. i practically laugh & cry, cry & laugh. very good movie !
oh, maybe expect for those girls behind us who were oh-so noisy. i wished i bought pop-corn, i can whack it into their evil faces :DDD
sometimes i get demoralised because i'm an injury ic.
i find going to cca & just sitting there watching meaningless. i want to do power-jumping, acceleration, pick-ups, my favourtie 200m.
but i can't :(
i got back to training, i run 800m. my best timing was merely a 3.04 which can hardly even get me into the finals in nationals. 2 months of hard work, training, long-runs, short accelerations, ankle & knee strengthening exercises, core-strength exercises- i didn't improve at all.
i can't even do a proper baton passing, useless.
my teamates comfort me, tells me that i'm already not bad, considering that i've just recovered returned to training. soon i'll be catching up with them. these words are pleasant to hear, gives hopes, boost morale.
but the problem is i can't even get through the obstacle that i set for myself.
i'm born to
hate to lose. i'm born to be impatient. when i don't see improvement in a period of time i get demoralise & lose hope because i'm a sore loser.
i love you guys who try to cheer me up & help me get through my obstacle, my greatest enemy, that idiotic young little ignorant brat who thinks so highly of herself that is standing in front of me & wouldn't budge- myself.
but i do love you.